grastic + work + proposal

im realli tired....work had being toiling me down to the rock....make my way to hong's bday today...no surprise...drink..dancing...n after drunk event n crazy talks n touchy body..lol..well...not exactly the best day for me...was realli tired when i reach as was rushing some work..well i saw darren wif his new gf...tts realli cool man...another guy out of this bachelor club...hope all can leave in due time =D but it was all sunny for the nite....was having this realli bad grastic which eventually leaving me realli mang zang...i must realli say all the entertaining on work have left me much more seasoned...im realli not into the idea of getting one another drunk at any event...n i must say...im getting out of plc in the grp...nowhere to explain but yet so obvious...n don get me wrong..i love my frens..juz tt lately there is plenty of things for me to juz worry my brain cells off n rather to enjoy myself....what happen to my buddy...piling work n responsilbities wif the new promotion...lots of uncertainies in both girls n guy prob..lol...life isnt realli on a smooth sail lately....i think i nd a getaway....but im juz too tight in schedule to even plan a wkend outing...i juz hope the next day is always beta than yest...=D
its plain speechless when the more u do for a person...the helpless feeling juz increase....in view of the prev few entries..many frens have being asking me...ya...there is indeed a girl in my life....or rather...she is in my life..but not me in hers....it doesnt take much to do tt lil bit for her...but yet in return is always cold shoulder n disappointment...im realli losing faith in love n fate....it simply don work on me...n when to love is always hurting....im learning the way to be a loner...i must realli talk to hill more le...she jzu make my day by complaining abt girls for me...lol...im not realli into her as i must explain...not love kinda like..juz feel she is nice...maybe we could get to noe each another more....but seem like the frenship juz stalled..i donnoe what m i doing is rite anot....i juz hope tt she live on well...blessings from me....so after this entry..no more stopid thinking by me..=D n for my frens...if u r gng to ask....save it....coz this will always remain as a open ended qn...:P
im thinking of changing my blog to those can put password protect de...ya noe...time flies...i got some words that i must write out but yet i don wan ppl to read n get the wrong meanings...i noe..im nv a secretive person...but i realli donnoe for sure for this...until now..i still perceive as my closest fren r the one reading this blog...n i hope they do understand every single meaning which i realli hope to write down....
i beta get bk on my feet man....block a few ppl from my msn list...also must go swim tml to get bk in shape..the onli plc u can pick urself up is the plc where u fall...n im learning from every pieces of tt....n guys...for those who r wondering if im ok..ya im ok...as gd as ever...n for those who hav being suffering from my boring n mang zang-ness..i apologise...n if u r tt girl...i sincerely say im sorry...don worry..this acquaintance of urs will slowly fade off n wif out any sound...i think i do noe what u wan....n as a fren..i will give my best to help n give my blessings...tired alr..beta get to slp....juz wanted to jot down some main pt..tml then talk more ba...nitey